The longer I work in db, the more lost I become...the more sad stories I heard of the people in there...of course, some of the guys deserve to be punished cause they did the offences out of fun and some are repeat but some really have their reasons...of course everyone deserve a 2nd chance...and the job of us is to rehab them...to make them learn their lessons...easier said than done...for most of them never learn their lesson...I wonder why people continue to do the same mistakeopver and over again...when they know they will get punished for it...and that the petty offences they committed can be avoided if they had the heart to change...are humans that stubborn???? Dream...a very strange experience...once I had a dream of myself being the detainee...and it felt so really...the life felt so really...and I feel so scared after that about the life in there...cause your freedom is stripped away from you...so is it really worth it to waste your life because of some mistakes that you committed on impulse? But some of them had really sad story behind why they commited their offences...and I feel confused about what justice is...is it right to detain someone for an offence that is so petty because he reallly had no choice??? The malaysian water dispute...both country having their own views about the thing...having their own facts...so who is in the right? what good does it do for both neighbouring country to bite each other over and over again onver the same old issue??? Why does malaysia publish those ads claiming that they are in the disadvantage while singapore is in the advantage??? What benefit does malaysia gain from these ads? The neighbours fighting each other...the never ending dispute...that I felt is pointless....if only both singapore and malaysia would back down....if only malaysia realise that their water came from nautre....if only the bigger land could realise that nature gave water to them not to just make a profit from it...but to help its nearby neighbour who is physically small and lack of natural resources...and for that kind gesture, that small neighbour could repay it in other forms that could be much greater...that if both country have a good relationship, they will prosper...and that not only applies for singapore-malaysia along but for the senseless war and dispute that occurs all over the world...why can't human realise that we are one and the same...that we are supposed to help each other....not to slaughter each other...why does this blood thirst continue on...why is vengence such a vicious cycle...I wonder...in the small small room I am in...
"people fear things that don't have a form..."
"when a human had hope, the fear of death is thrown aside..."
"If I am the rain, then we will never meet cause we will have no crossroad...but I will be able to giude one's heart...like how the sky and ground is joined by the rain..."
"if I don't hold a sword...I can't protect you...but if I hold a sword...I won't be able to embrace you..."
"fate is not in our hands....when ignorance and fear beseech...we only had to take a wrong turn and we would be lead by fate and fell into a swamp..."
"we are not shedding tears, it is just the soul expressing the failure of our physical body...but there is no evidence showing that we can't control our souls..."
"if it rusts, do not use it to hurt others...if it breaks, my body will also shatters...this pride is just like the blade of a sword..."
These are some phrases that I translated out of one of my favourite comic, bleach...I am not a good translator...so try to understand most of it...anyway, the phrase "if I don't hold a sword, I can't protect you, but if I hold a sword, I can't embrace you" is one that is my favourite for it really got me thinking...that is because...when you are forced into a situation where you have no choice but to fight in order to protect your loved ones...if you don't pick up a weapon, if you don't learn deadly skills, you won't be able to protect them....but once you joined the slaughter...your hand will be stained red...with the person's blood...the person who could be fighting for the same reason as you do...a person who is fighting to protect his loved ones...your hands will be stained...would you bear to touch your family members with such hands? A hand that has taken away other people's loved ones, their hope? Would you be able to enjoy your happy life just because you have killed others to attain it? A hand that is stained...but if you don't do that, you won't be able to protect your loved ones...
Who is the person I fear most in my life? It is myself...cause 90% of the times, I don't know who I am...I don't know what will be my next move...whether I will go insane in the near future...and hurt others in the process...I sometimes feel that I have lost my humane side...and become a very cold machine...the older I get...the more often I find myself in this machine state...I fear myself...
"people fear things that don't have a form..."
"when a human had hope, the fear of death is thrown aside..."
"If I am the rain, then we will never meet cause we will have no crossroad...but I will be able to giude one's heart...like how the sky and ground is joined by the rain..."
"if I don't hold a sword...I can't protect you...but if I hold a sword...I won't be able to embrace you..."
"fate is not in our hands....when ignorance and fear beseech...we only had to take a wrong turn and we would be lead by fate and fell into a swamp..."
"we are not shedding tears, it is just the soul expressing the failure of our physical body...but there is no evidence showing that we can't control our souls..."
"if it rusts, do not use it to hurt others...if it breaks, my body will also shatters...this pride is just like the blade of a sword..."
These are some phrases that I translated out of one of my favourite comic, bleach...I am not a good translator...so try to understand most of it...anyway, the phrase "if I don't hold a sword, I can't protect you, but if I hold a sword, I can't embrace you" is one that is my favourite for it really got me thinking...that is because...when you are forced into a situation where you have no choice but to fight in order to protect your loved ones...if you don't pick up a weapon, if you don't learn deadly skills, you won't be able to protect them....but once you joined the slaughter...your hand will be stained red...with the person's blood...the person who could be fighting for the same reason as you do...a person who is fighting to protect his loved ones...your hands will be stained...would you bear to touch your family members with such hands? A hand that has taken away other people's loved ones, their hope? Would you be able to enjoy your happy life just because you have killed others to attain it? A hand that is stained...but if you don't do that, you won't be able to protect your loved ones...
Who is the person I fear most in my life? It is myself...cause 90% of the times, I don't know who I am...I don't know what will be my next move...whether I will go insane in the near future...and hurt others in the process...I sometimes feel that I have lost my humane side...and become a very cold machine...the older I get...the more often I find myself in this machine state...I fear myself...
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