As time goes by, I realise that my heart is going very very cold... I think I am still the same person a few years ago... Which means I have not grow up but hey, if growing up means to be deceptive and play hyprocritics with each other mind, I think I will prefer not to grow up in my thoughts processing and remain where I am... sure call me lagger with times or what, but I don't wanna be the devious adult that I hate so much... but even as I say this, I feel myself turning to the one cold beast... yes, my thoughts processing have not changed but I can't seem to bother to help people around me anymore... maybe its because I am afraid of getting too close to people around me... thats why most of the friends I have who I confide in are those who have being with me for years to knows who I am really like and those who I find that they are really the nice guys they are... oh, btw, I don't think I confide a lot anyway cause most of the problems I have I prefer to keep it down in my heart and torture myself with it... I think I enjoy being torturing myself a lot cause thats when I feel human... PERVERT! Yeah, I know, maybe I am one. One perverted vampire. Maybe thats why I feel like I am turning more into a hypocritic and attempt show one side of me while hiding the darker side of me... yes, world domination have always being my darker side that I never shared with anyone and yes, it is still all talk and no plan yet... MORON! SLACKER! INCOMPETENT FOOL! DISILLUSIONED! Yes, I think people will be thinking those things about me so I save you guys the trouble... don't think about me too much though, I will feel embrassed cause those sounds like compliments to me... an optimistic way of thinking people might add! Oh, I think people in the Mental insitutions might need me to work there... I can provide some good quality counselling. Although I might feel like strangling the person and shooting the person when they call me all these, please be ensured that I will offer you a smile or just some expressionless face while imagining all these scenes in my head. Yes, they will only occur in my head so please feel free to call me all these, I won't mind and I think I enjoy the attention but please don't go out alone at night. You will never know what 'accidents' might happen. Oh and being a cold blooded beast seems like a better idea than turning into a devious adults, maybe I should live in the jungle like Tarzan but would I find Jane, the gorilla in the jungle?

3 days has passed since I finished my exams...yes, even vampires have to take exams once in a while in order to mix with human and have a look at how society have changed with time...and what better place to see that than in school...and a uni in fact to see what sort of people would be the ones going spearhead the new generation... 'brightest' people of the nation continuing their quest for a piece of paper to have a better life in the future... but hey, the 'brightest' people aren't so bright after all... in the persue of a piece of paper, bodies are stepped over and stampered in order to prove they are the elites and in the meantime losing something important... but hey, this is seriously a small scope to look at the world... after all, every day people are killed by terroist who have being brain washed mindlessly... and all the people get are small columns in the news paper report... oh, if its a white journalist and a major bombing, yes, they get headlines... but there are a lot more people being killed everyday with small village riots, 'justice' carried out by the locals, terroist blah blah blah... and people just don't get it that they are hurting another one of their kind and they feel that their actions are justified... I just get why humans love to inflict harm on each other to get their message across... A modern society I am now living in, even here is not spared with people everyday here competing with each other at cut throat levels to earn a living... Oh, and politics are just a waste of time with people vying for people's support and critising the other group for their policies just to prove that they are indeed doing something to represent the people... my thoughts are if they have the energy to do all these things and if they really want to help the people, why don't the opposing teams just merge together instead of being in opposition... in fact, I think the modern politics is just invented by humans to satisfy their natural blood thirst... after all, human history is plagued with wars and even now, small fractions of conflicts are still being carried out everyday claiming that they are doing for the people... you attack, I retailate and this chain will go on and on just because nations cannot put down their pride and sit down and talk about it... oh talks are being carried out alright but never to resolve anything... Oh yes baby, if talks are not gonna work out, just offer some spoilt food and poison the leader and blame it on food poisoning to get the message across... underhand means this may sound like but then again, they are being carried out everyday... the straight out approach will land you in dire situation and there is no time for fair play even in sports when it is a multi million dollar industry... oh, and don't mind the millions of people starving, they deserve it while I take millions in income... haha, too bad you are born in the poor country and its not my problem... they don't say it out but neither do their salaries or actions seems fair...oh talented sport player! He can sure bring the ball up! He's a genius with soccer! A talent I have no seen in ten years! I am willing to pay millions of dollars a year for him even though he doesn't need it and can live a comfortable lifestyle with just 5 thousand a month but that doesn't suit the image of a world class sportsman who needs millions to spend on cars, palace and gambling...capitalist is good, thats what we are looking for to solve the world problems! What an embrassing world to live in, its no wonder protest and protest are carried out everyday... oh, and environmental resources are being sacrificed in the meantime because the survival of the human race is more important than the other race which can be sacrificed cause they are not as smart as a human... Oh, and in the meantime, I am expoiting the world resources while writing this entry which seems to make all the points I made above to attack myself but hey, I am a vampire and not human, so the best thing to do would be to let a vampire like me to run the world and destroy it and let the whole civilisation to start from scratch! WAHAHAHAHAHA!! Yes, I think I am going bonkers! Somebody try to stake me in the heart! But hey, it won't work against me! For I am the one and only stupid naive vampire around! Oh, did I say stupid? Forget that, I realise human race as a whole are even more stupid than I will ever be! Will peace ever befall earth with humans around? Definitely, when there is just one single human on Earth...