I feel bored... School started but nothing is interesting... A sense of emptiness fills my heart... The weekend was spent doing nothing...although I planned to do something productive about school work, I can't bring myself to it... What happened to me? Is it depression? Yeah right, like I will get depressed when I am eating alright, sleeping alright and doing things that I enjoy... But somehow, doing school work doesn't have a sense of satisfactory... actually, I wanted to study japanese but somehow, I can't bring myself to do it during this weekend... What is stopping me anyway... Myself? I can't motivate myself... Maybe studying in school without a aim is pretty... well, boring... or maybe cause studying in school has nothing to do with my dream? ... I seriously don't know myself well enough... What do I want? What do I really want? Questions I sometimes ask myself but not enough satisfactory answers...

But one thing that I am interested in is waging war against the world... the unreal world that we live in... the fabric of illusion that surrounds the peaceful capitalistic countries...I'm getting pretty twisted...someday, I think I will go bonkers...but maybe thats because of the interaction and interpretion I am having with the world...